The Big 3

Christmas time brings 3 things each year; your birthday, my birthday and of course Christmas. It’s those three things that bring a special warmth to my heart as I try to embed the Christmas joy my parents gave me during this time of year for you. My heart goes out to families that are not able to provide the toys and gifts for their little ones as my parents were able to do for me. So of course this year I again showered you with well thought out gifts as I tried to imagine which ones would bring the biggest smiles.

I will admit I was a little surprised on how well you did with not trying to open any gifts early or asking if you could open them early. You did gravitate to the tree now and then to get a peek at them but you were able to contain yourself as I once did many years ago. Since I did not have you this Christmas, I only thought it to be better to wait until I have you for you to open presents so that you can enjoy them longer. Otherwise it would have been ooooh and awww and then tell you it was time to go back home. Of course they would be here when you got back, but that is hard to comprehend at your age so I chose to wait.

Although you did receive a few gifts for your birthday since I was able to spend time with you on Christmas Eve/Your Birthday which was very cherished as you played with play-dough with Pa Pa. During that time Pa Pa made at least 7 different animals and you made about 157 balls and 4 snakes. You interacted with Pa Pa for over an hour as you guys stayed focus on your play-dough projects with songs of Christmas and stories of Daycare and your friends. I watched from the couch and was sort of saddened by the fact that you will not be 3 forever. Each year will come faster and faster and bring new stories and new gifts, and although you will always be my little girl, you won’t always be my little 3 year old girl. You did promise to stay 3 years old for me, but I know I can’t hold you to that.

I love you my little angel. Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas… love always daddy.

Decembers to Remember


I have been told many times that I am a lucky father to have such a beautiful and sweet child. Believe me when I tell you that I never take each of those comments for granted either. I think every parent is lucky to be blessed with a child and my feelings are nothing to new to any parent. However, when you get what exactly you wished for, it makes it that much better.

I can’t believe in less than 19 days you will be 3 years old. As cliche as it sounds, it does seem like just yesterday you were brought home from the hospital. Thinking back, I must have looked like a deer in headlights on the way home from the hospital knowing that this was really happening. Of course you have 9 months to prepare yourself for being a parent, but there is nothing like trial by fire on your first night.

It’s those experiences along with the subtle and not so subtle occurrences that led me to create this journal to share my thoughts and feelings as a first time parent. It’s been a journey to say the least, but one I would do over and over again to treasure the firsts in your young life. It also helps to have great friends and family that have been there along the way for us during these times. You may not remember any of them until you get to be about 5 or 6, but they loved you just the same.

The 2 years I have been writing my thoughts and feelings about our times together helps me memorialize moments that are usually lost or forgotten but will be here for you to treasure as time rolls on. Each December brings us a special time of year as you and I, 2 Capricorns turn one year older. It’s special to me knowing we will most likely share similar personality traits so many people have come to love about me (sarcastic grin), and look forward to seeing you blossom into a young lady one day, but not gonna rush those days to get here anytime soon as I will enjoy you being 3 for as long as I can.